I remember feeling the fear just thinking that I may one day find
myself without someone who will be there with me for life. Becoming
single forever. Living alone. On my own. The fear, as I now analyzed was
coming from wrong perceptions, and my own concept of single blessedness.
I was 26 when I got married.
Now, it had been 9 years! And guess what?
I am actually looking back
and asking myself.. what if I...,
what if I hadn’t found the man I would marry, what if I am still single?
and am actually excited on the what -ifs! haha.
Coming here, seeing all
the possibilities, looking outside the box, Majoy, there is really
soooo much more!
Not that I am wanting to be single again.
OK, for a day or two, would
really love to be.. hehe see, no kids, no kiddy hubby too! hehe just
plain old me spending my time just for me.. kinda all ME, ME, ME!
Had I not married at 26, I know I would be going through the same way
you are going through now.. but then again, as you said, in a way you
were surprisingly happy of the possibilities.. single and open to see
what’s ahead.
I remember, I was once told, the only way for me to see him is for me
to ask myself what I really want my man to be.. 3 things.. then, BE
that. We attract our thoughts. What we think, we create.
It may take time, but when we become who we really are, we will begin
to do what we love to do, and then we will have our heart’s desire.
Believe it.
In the mean time my friend, smile, you have the world in your hands!:)
*written in November, 2009
